The Moonlight That Surrounds Me

Pembaca yang budiman, manga favorite saya adalah Please Save My Earth (PSME). Nah, berhubung saya sangat mengidolakannya, saya menunggu-nunggu serial kelanjutannya, yah saya ingin tau bagaimana hubungan interpersonal tiap karakternya..hehhe

Dan akhirnya hari itu pun tiba!

Saki Hiwatari, mangaka pencipta PSME, menerbitkan serial kelanjutannya, berjudul The Moonlight that Surrounds Me (TMTSM) =)

How happy I am! \(^O^)/

*pic: mokuren, ren, shion

Untuk membaca scanlationnya klik disini.

-Galauku-

O Allah yang Maha Kuasa,

Engkaulah pujaanku,

Hanya padaMu lah pujian ku berikan,

O Muhammad rasulullah,

berikan aku syafaatmu,

Segala junjunganku untuk mu

ya rasulullah,

O Rumi,

sucikan aku seperti mu,

seperti niatmu menyembah Allah semata,

Ya sufi, tariklah aku dalam pelukan tarianmu,

bawa aku melayang,

terhipnotis akan keindahan ibadah kepada Allah,

Ya sufi! ijinkan aku menuntut ilmu di negerimu

31-8-2011 0.09am

Pengakuan untuknya..

Tak tau harus mulai dari mana, tapi setelah berbincang dengan teman seperusahaan saya, dia curhat mengenai pendekatan ke teman wanita saya. Saya memberitahukan ke teman seperusahaan saya itu bagaimana seharusnya lelaki bersikap ketika mendekati lawan jenis.. dan dari semua yang saya berikan “bimbingan” itu bahwa saya mengingat seseorang. Seorang lelaki yang pernah ada di hati saya. Seseorang yang menurut pengamatan Mita (teman dekat saya, sudah seperti kakak) adalah cinta pertama saya. Yaa, pernah Mita bertanya bagaimana perasaan saya terhadap lelaki itu, saya jawab jujur bahwa saya memang cinta dia. Benar, saya telah menyalahi kata-kata saya sendiri, bahwa saya bersikeras bahwa cinta saya hanya untuk suami saya..sesungguhnya, saya sangat berharap “I end up with you”. Bukan hanya karena saat itu dia satu-satunya yang mendapat restu ayah-ibu saya, namun juga karena saya terlalu malas, lelah membiarkan hati saya terluka. Saya memang tak punya sejarah cinta yang sangat menyakitkan, namun cukuplah bila saya pernah menunggu seseorang selama 14th untuk menyatakan cinta pada saya namun tak berarti apa-apa, pula saya sangat terluka ketika mengetahui orang yang saya kasihi ternyata tak mendapat restu ortu dan akhirnya saya yang memutuskannya..

Saya seorang pemuja cinta, saya mampu jatuh cinta terhadap rasa cinta itu sendiri. Saya seorang yang memiliki imajinasi tinggi, yang selalu berkhayal.. kiranya saya terlalu naïf, bila berpendapat bahwa cinta yang membuat bumi, dunia ini berputar. Saya benar-benar memuja keindahan, kelembutan cinta..

Saat itu, saya hanya berpikir bahwa saya sangat ingin bersamanya, ingin memilikinya baik hatinya, pikirannya, tubuhnya (hahah..kali ini bahasan saya vulgar dan adult content.maaf) hanya untuk saya. Meski demikian, tak dapat saya pungkiri, saya tak mungkin melarangnya mendahulukan cintanya untuk saya dibandingkan dengan cintanya pada Allah dan Rasulullah. Tidak. Saya masih cukup waras untuk mengutamakan ketauhidan dalam membangun rumah tangga.

Then, the time goes by.. Everything change. He broke all my wings, all my hopes. Yah, memang sakit sekali seperti ini.. Owalah, sekalinya berharap, ternyata saya terluka sekali. Dalam sekali. Ah, mungkin saya terlalu lebay, namun saya seorang yang sensitive (dan salah lah, apabila ada yang mengatakan saya tidak/kurang peka. Mereka tak tau, karena ada hal yang lebih saya prioritaskan daripada kesensitifan itu sendiri).. Toh, ortu saya sendiri akhirnya merasa sangat bersalah telah merestui lelaki itu. Apalagi ayah saya, langsung menyuruh saya untuk tidak pernah berhubungan dengannya, karena tau kata-katanya sangat kasar. Tidak sepatutnya seorang lelaki dewasa, yang berpendidikan dan terhormat, mengucapkan kata-kata sekasar itu kepada wanita.

Hal yang paling membuat saya terluka, adalah adanya pengkhianatan yang dilakukan oleh teman saya. Saya tau, saya memang tidak begitu dekat dengannya, namun saya pernah berdiskusi dengannya mengenai lelaki itu. Saat itu dia berkata “tapi diakan playboy..suka flirting sana sini..” , saat itu saya yang bodoh karena “cinta”, mengiyakannya namun saya memang tidak begitu mempedulikannya, saya memaklumi negative traitsnya.. Ternyata, selama dibelakang saya, teman saya itu berkomentar “kq, si fulan ngasih harapan gitu ke fika??” ke teman saya yang lain..saya merasa terkhianati. Kalau memang dia mengatakan itu, kenapa tidak mencegah saya? Malah membiarkan temannya tersakiti?? Lalu ketika sakit, dia tidak melakukan apa-apa untuk saya?? Hmm,,saya mesti belajar menerima orang seperti itu..yang tidak melakukan hal yang baik untuk perasaan temannya.

Hal lain yang membuat saya terluka, saat mengetahui bahwa lelaki itu jauh lebih melindungi wanita lain. Saya tau dia memberikan posisi pertama untuk wanita itu. Ya, saya CEMBURU! Hal yang bisa saya terima, adalah karena abjad wanita itu lebih dahulu dari saya, jadi dia membuatnya menjadi pertama yang disukainya. Tampaknya tidak begitu. Karena lelaki itu lebih melindungi wanita itu. Well, ketika wanita itu menganggap saya menyebalkan, membenci saya, dia pun setuju dengan wanita itu. Dengan senang hati dia (dalam ungkapan kasarnya) jongkrok-jongkrokin saya, menjelek-jelekkan saya. Ah, namanya juga lelaki itu sayang, cinta, mengasihi, peduli dengan wanita itu, tentu saya yang “dikorbankan”.. haaahh,,astaghfirullah. Dia yang semangat menemui wanita itu di kosnya, semangat hang out bersamanya, memang jatuh cinta kepadanya. Saya yang memang salah, menjadi pihak ketiga dari hubungan mereka. Masha allah, saya tidak pernah berkeinginan menjadi pihak ketiga, pun selalu mewanti-wanti teman saya untuk tidak menjadi pihak ketiga..namun ternyata begini keadaannya. Maafkan saya, mbak IIH.
Jujur saya ingin tau sekali, bagaimana bisa lelaki itu jatuh cinta pada wanita itu. Orang lain boleh melihat saya membalas dendam, merusak wanita itu. Tapi, PDA (please deh ah,red.) saya tidak berniat seperti itu. Namanya juga orang lain, hanya dapat menilai, melihat apa yang dilihat, didengar, dirasakan, dialaminya. Namun, harap ini menjadi pengingat, dog will not bark if they know the person. Biarkan saja.

Tahukah dia, bahwa meski dia jauh lebih tua dari saya, merasa tidak pantas, tidak muda lagi untuk saya, saya tidak masalah. Seperti lagu 50 tahun lagi-warna. Hanya tampaknya kau takut. Karena kau telah memilih yang lain, sedangkan permainanmu terhadapku diluar ekspektasi mu, yaitu sayapun memiliki perasaan special terhadapnya. Bagaimana saya dapat mengatakan ini? Saya melihat komentar balik dari temanmu, mengenai bagaimana senangnya dirimu terlepas dari sebuah ikatan. Seperti lepas dari garis polisi.

Alhamdulillah, Allah benar-benar menampar saya hanya untuk menyadarkan saya. Allah telah membuang perasaan saya terhadapnya, namun pikiran saya masih mengingat apa yang dilakukannya terhadap saya. Astaghfirullah. Tapi saya sudah mulai tidak bisa mengingat lelaki itu. Sedangkan wanita itu, saya merasa sangat sakit ketika dia melaporkan ke lelaki itu betapa menyebalkannya saya terhadapnya. Owh, PDA (lagi), kalau memang saya menyebalkan, katakan saja itu pada saya langsung. Jangan seperti anak kecil yang mengadukan kenakalan temannya kepada orang tuanya/orang tua temannya yang nakal itu. Wanita itu lahir tahun 1987, saya 1989, hendaknya dia menjadi contoh yang baik untuk saya, karena menurut lelaki itu saya masih childish. Wanita itu, saya, sudah sama-sama besar, sudah masuk dewasa menurut BW. Kalau ada masalah, selesaikanlah dengan yang bersangkutan. Kecuali kalau kau berniat menghancurkan saya. Astaghfirullah. Naudzubillahmindzalik.

Lebih sakit lagi, yang menyadarkan saya adalah lelaki itu. Hmm, betapa dia melindunginya. Bismillah, semoga mereka dapat menikah segera dan langgeng seterusnya. Aaammiiiinn
Saya sakit memang berdoa seperti itu, namun hanya itu yang bisa saya lakukan. Semoga Allah mengampuni kesalahan-kesalahan, dosa-dosa saya. Aaaamiiiinn

Saat mengetik ini, saya mendengarkan lagu-lagu mellow, walhasil saya menangis. Ah, gak papa! Bukan fika namanya, kalau tidak menangis karena patah hati, lalu berduka, untuk kemudian bangkit lagi. Hahaha, what a life! Semoga semakin banyak inspirasi dari rasa cinta yang pernah ada, maupun rasa sakit yang saya rasakan.. hihihihi ;)

Ohya, untuk masalah saya dengan wanita itu, saya telah meminta maaf langsung kepadanya. Saya maklum jika saya tidak dimaafkannya, dia masih membenci saya.. Well, kalau kata sahabat saya, Andika, saya harus belajar menerima apa yang orang lain lakukan/pikirkan =)
Yang paling penting, saya sudah diingatkan betapa menyebalkan, bikin benci, menyakitkan perbuatan saya. Semoga Allah memaafkan saya. Semoga Allah menjauhkan saya dari sifat, perbuatan buruk. Astaghfirullah. Audzubillahhimminnasyaitonnirrojim.

Lalu, dari semua hal diatas, saya akui, saya mengagumi ke-gentle-an lelaki itu dalam mendekati lawan jenis yang menurutnya menarik. Standing applaus untuknya =)

Akan saya ingat untuk advice bagi teman kerja saya itu..hehehe

*doa hari ini:
Ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, Maha Pengampun, ampuni dan maafkan dosa-dosa, kesalahan-kesalahan hamba. Engkau yang Maha Pemurah, Maha Kaya, lapangkanlah hati hamba dalam menjalani hidup di dunia ini, mudahkan jalan hamba selama hidup.

Ya Allah, yang Maha Kuasa atas segala sesuatu, berikanlah hamba ketentraman dalam menjalani hidup dan bergaul dengan sesama manusia, mudahkanlah hamba menentukan pilihan.

Ya Allah yang Maha Berkehendak, jauhkan hamba dari segala sifat, perbuatan buruk. Berikan hamba kemampuan untuk menentukan yang bathil dan haq. Berikan hamba kekuatan untuk melaksanakan segala hal yang baik. Ya Allah, jauhkanlah hamba dari segala hal yang buruk.

Ya Allah yang Maha Terpercaya, Maha Penjaga, jagalah iman, hati, pikiran, jasmani, rohani hamba kapanpun dimanapun hamba berada.

Ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, berikanlah kesehatan yang baik kepada ayah ibu lelaki itu, karena saya sangat peduli dengan mereka. Kasihanilah mereka, berikan mereka kesabaran dan kemudahan hidup.

Ya Allah yang Maha Mengabulkan doa, kabulkanlah doa hamba ini.

Makasih Allah =)

Pisces Woman as Wife part 2

Positive characteristics- Pisces
Deep and mysterious, that’s what a Pisces girl is. One has to understand the mystery surrounding her. She is delightfully feminine and incredibly beautiful to be every man’s fantasy. She is soft and very womanly. She is not the typical 21st century woman, fighting for power. In fact, she will be quite happy to let someone dominate her. A Pisces woman is very sentimental. She can be adept at art. She is a bit of a dreamer. She will have vivid dreams for herself. People feel comfortable just being in her company. She gets adjusted to any situation gracefully. This girl is usually shy. You will never find her aggressive. She feels the men in her life- father, brother, boyfriend or husband- can fight the entire world. She constantly needs someone to protect her and love her. She is quite content and satisfied with herself. She has a soft corner for the underachievers.

Negative characteristics- Pisces
Sometimes a Pisces woman can get a little too clingy. She wants her man to tend to her constantly. She loves to be somewhat deceptive. She does not open up completely. This secrecy can be annoying at times. Lack of ambition will not allow her to use her talent and skills. She is unpredictable and has mood-swings. She is too sentimental to deal with the world all by herself.

Pisces woman as a wife/lover- Pisces Female Personality Trait
The man who marries a Pisces woman will feel himself lucky to have won a jackpot. She is feminine and beautiful. She will always look her best at a social gathering. She will never try to dominate her man. She expects her man to protect her from the big, bad world. No one will find her flirting with men at the party. She won’t come across as a strong woman. She doesn’t have lofty ambitions and will gladly give up her career for marriage. She constantly wants affection and care from her man. If a Pisces woman is hurt, she can go into long spells of depression. Her life will revolve around her man. She can get a tad too dependent on her man.

Pisces woman as a mother- Pisces Female Personality Trait
Although a Pisces female will love her children, her man will always be the center of her Universe. She can sacrifice to give the best to her children. She understands the shyness of boys and growing-up issues of girls effortlessly. Disciplining the children is not her cup of tea. She can become over-indulgent with her offsprings.

More About Pisces Woman as Wife

The Pisces woman is a woman of dreams. Logic rarely exists in her life as she dosen’t really understand it. Her favourite world is the one she has created herself in her own mind. She has a sweetness that is delightful and can warm up even the coldest heart. Not many people could refuse a Pisces woman, they are simply just too sweet.

These women has a sixth sense, they just seem to know what’s coming next. Some people accuse these women of playing mind games, but mostly I believe that it is this extra sense, this added perception that is to blame for this.

Pisces women are exceptionally sensitive and bring with this sensitivity an overwhelming kindness and care for others. They can’t bare to see others suffer and will always try and help out people who aren’t as fortunate as herself. She actually get’s embarrassed if she has been successful in her life and finds herself next to people who aren’t as wealthy as her.

This lady knows how to please in a relationship. She is not pushy or nagging and just wants everyone to feel happy. Seeing her family unhappy will cause her a great deal of pain as she kind of has the attitude that it is all down to her to sort out. As a mother she will be soft and sensitive and lovely really. Definitely a parent a child will be able to talk to if their is a problem. They may be worried about upsetting her though.

The Pisces woman does have a tendency for feeling sorry for herself, and just like the Pisces man, if she is not brought out of this it could well lead to depression. Also watch for post natal depression in these women after they have had a child. This woman does have a tough side too. She may look like the perfect angel from the outside but this can change and she can turn into something else altogether, which will undoubtedly shock anyone who is close to this lady as it really doesn’t seem possible. But it is, she is a pretty tough cookie under her armour of sensitivity. She will get especially riled if she is pulled out from her dream worlkd unwillingly. You have been warned.

All in all thought this woman is a pleasure to be around. And let’s face it, none of us are perfect!

Source: http://www.love-astrology.com/astrology/women/pisces-women/

Another Compability

Here's another zodiac compability. Don't forget it's just fun! ;D

Love Meter (pilih yang love meter)

Love Chart

Source: www.findyourfate.com

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*Meski jodoh di tangan Allah, tapi sebagai manusia kita masih bisa "merayu" Allah untuk meridhoi pilihan kita, dengan berdo'a. Pastinya juga, sebagai manusia kita bisa berusaha untuk memilih siapa yang berhak menjadi pasangan hidup kita.. Intinya, saya percaya bahwa kita harus memilih siapa orang yang akan menjadi pasangan hidup kita, juga kalau sudah memutuskan siapa yang pantas, maka pertahankanlah ia! Karena kita tidak tau apa yang akan terjadi di masa depan.. Allah hanya memberi kita pilihan-pilihan hidup yang pada akhirnya kita jua lah yang memilih masa depan kita akan seperti apa.. Keep trying =)

Pisces Woman Compability

Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Aries Man

What’s it like when a Pisces woman is dating an Aries man? Steamy! This can be positive or negative, depending on how you look at it. Steam does not allow you to see clearly but it is certainly hot and sexy!

The Pisces woman is passive and receptive whereas the Aries man is aggressive and generative. When dating it’s apparent that he’ll lead and she’ll follow however she may be enthralled at his bravado that she’ll follow blindly and not think for herself in the relationship.

The Aries man may decide his Pisces woman is too sensitive and wants to toughen her up. The Pisces woman decides that dating her Aries man is not exactly a storybook romance but the sex between them will be so cavalier and romantic, this love match is hard to resist.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Taurus Man

This could be dating heaven! The Pisces woman and Taurus man share an immediate connection and seem to have a great deal on common.

The Pisces woman is compassionate and sensitive and will immerse herself into life’s experiences, leaving her vulnerable. But if she’s dating a Taurus man he’ll come to her rescue providing the stability she needs to never be lost for long.

Sexually, this dating pair will be in ecstasy! A romantic Pisces woman and a sensual Taurus man will enjoy every bit of each other.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Gemini Man

When the Pisces woman is dating a Gemini man it’s easy for this pair to quickly become lost in love. It’s equally as easy however, for both of them to become completely lost.

The Pisces woman and Gemini man are both malleable in nature. While it’s true they can easily go with the flow it’s also true that they can’t seem to make a straight decision. There seems to be little backbone in this dating match.

Still, the attraction is great and while the Pisces woman and Gemini man may never truly understand one another, they have no trouble allowing each other to simply be. Sexually they work out well and will find sublime excitement in each other’s arms.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Cancer Man

Here is another dating match in heaven! The Pisces woman and Cancer man have an immediate instinctive soul link that is even more powerful than their fabulous sexual link.

While the Pisces woman is dating a Cancer man the first thing she’ll notice is his moods. He is one sensitive soul. In fact she soaks up his emotions as if they’re her own and will reflect his moods. The Cancer man delights in this because he’s finally found someone who understands him. The Pisces woman feels an intimacy that goes beyond sex.

When dating does turn sexual, this love match will have no problem. They’ll enjoy sexual encounters near water and might even enjoy investing in a water bed!

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Leo Man

When a Pisces woman is dating a Leo man it will be a relationship full of traditional role playing. The Leo man will save his Pisces woman princess from the ivory tower and she’ll be forever in his debt. Literally.

The Pisces woman can easily be pushed around by the Leo man and he needs to guard against hurting her delicate countenance. The Leo man will enjoy his Pisces woman’s creativity as it complements his own, however he will dominate the relationship all through the dating game.

Sexually things are dreamy. The Pisces woman loses herself in her Leo man’s strong arms and he delights in performing for his lady in bed.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Virgo Man

This is another dating match of opposites attracting. It can be pure ecstasy or pure torture depending on what compromises the Pisces woman and Virgo man are willing to make.

When dating, the Pisces woman and Virgo man will complement each other in the sense that he sees the trees while she visualizes the entire forest. This is also where they may have trouble. If the Pisces woman can appreciate her Virgo man’s need to analyze and be correct about everything while he can appreciate her need to work with the intangible impressions that cannot be exact, then they will thrive in a lovely relationship.

When dating becomes a sexual relationship things get even more amazing. The Virgo man will attend to every detail of their sexual experience and the Pisces woman will wash him away with such tender love he just might forget all about his lists!

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Libra Man

The Pisces woman and Libra man weave a romantic dating story! They’re attracted to each other’s tenderness and although they may come from different worlds, they manage to create their own one quite beautifully.

The Pisces woman is going to appreciate the Libra man’s charm and appreciation of art and beauty. He may not be as sensitive as she, but he’ll bend over backwards to allow her to express herself imaginatively with compassion.

Sexually, this dating pair gets it right! They know the sexual bond they share is perfect harmony.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Scorpio Man

This can be an intense dating pair since the Pisces woman and Scorpio man are both sensitive water signs, however the Scorpio man may be a little too harsh for the tender Pisces spirit.

The Scorpio man will dominate the relationship which suits the Pisces woman just fine. He’ll want to devour her body and soul and this is intoxicating to her since she longs to meld with something greater than she. She’ll certainly put him on a pedestal.

The dating will quickly turn sexual with these two since a Scorpio man can have it no other way. The Pisces woman will surrender to his lovemaking and together this love match will swim in an endless ocean of love.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Sagittarius Man

The Pisces woman and Sagittarius man dating is expansive – which can be a good thing – however when you expand something without substance all you have is an illusion. The romance between these two may be only that.

The Pisces woman and Sagittarius man may share an astounding creative potential together since he will help broaden her belief in her ability to imagine the impossible. The dating will often center on spiritual and creative pursuits and if this dating pair can keep one foot on the ground they may have a lasting love.

Sexually things will be larger than life! The Pisces woman has her breath taken away by the Sagittarius man’s sexual openness. He in turn will find new sensitivities awakening in his soul as he makes love to his Pisces woman.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Capricorn Man

This dating pair is a perfect blend of grounded romance. The Pisces woman adds sensitivity and romance and the Capricorn man brings structure and reality. They complement beautifully.

The Pisces woman is more sensitive and compassionate than her Capricorn man. He will be ambitious and achievement oriented while she is more empathic. She’ll learn how to do something tangible with her emotions from him and he’ll learn to get back in touch with his inner child from her.

When dating turns sexual things only get better! The Pisces woman enjoys her Capricorn man’s earthy lust and he becomes immersed into her fantasies quite easily.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Aquarius Man

The dating between a Pisces woman and Aquarius man will be unusual from the start. The attraction between these signs is undeniable and although they share fundamental differences, they have a good chance at a lasting love match.

The Pisces woman will be more sensitive than her Aquarius man. He lives in the realm of intellect and she in emotion. If they can learn to find a balance while they’re dating then they end up enjoying each other’s unique qualities very much.

When dating becomes sexual, the Pisces woman will be washed away at her Aquarius man’s inventive approach to lovemaking. He’ll delight in her willingness to share her deepest fantasies.

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Love Match: Pisces Woman Dating Pisces Man

When a Pisces woman and a Pisces man are dating, they may never wake up from their romantic dream state!

The Pisces woman and Pisces man share an extraordinary spiritual and psychic bond. They instantly feel as if the other half of their own soul has connected and may give over their identity entirely to the other. This can be dangerous because Pisces does not have a strong sense of identity to begin with.

This dating pair will enjoy creative and imaginative pursuits together as well as helping to save the world. Sexually they will be so immersed in their bond that they end up saving each other as well.

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Astrological Compatibility Rating:

	It doesnt get any better than this! Go for it!
	This sign can teach you more about sex and love relationships.
	Think twice because you may live to regret it.
	What were you thinking?

Source: http://www.sexualastrology.com/pisceswomanpiscesman.html